Disconnected

ADD is terrible. An affliction that destroys your life unless you fight it. This is just the list of symptoms:

Lack of focus.
Memory loss
Anxiety
Spiggetti brain (meaning your brain is super random)
Constant moving
Always needing to do something with your hands
Lack of social skills

Ect....ect...ect....the list goes on and on...but the worst thing it does is it causes a dissconnect with the world.

It isn't truely a lack of focus....add is more a lack of multi tasking. If i'm working out something in my head then i'll likely either go into my own little world or be distracted from the task by everything...which is what causes anxiety.

If i'm having a conversation its hard to look people in the eye, not because I'm untrustworthy but because I'm so used to staring at people and freaking them out on accident...that somewhere in my unconcious mind I equate looking people in the eye as socially unacceptable. It would be fine if that was the culture, but unfourtunately its not.

My point is, it hurts to be dissconnected. Have you ever felt like your faith has ADD? You get so distracted by other things that your mind totally blanks on God? you constantly forget to pray or read your Bible? Maybe somewhere there's a dissconnect. Just like in my brain ^-^;

This is how it feels to have a dead faith. It doesn't feel to good. Its like your spiritually depressed. Well, there are ways to cure this.

Step 1: GO TO CHURCH!
When you let yourself fade from church it's easy for satan to get into your head. Trust me. Its good to have that uplnifting message to bring ya back.

Step 2: GET ACTIVE IN YOUR WALK WITH GOD
Do something. It can be a small thing. It can be helping your neighbor unload her groceries every other week. It could be going to the food pantry and serving those in need. It could be as simple as sitting with that guy nobody likes, at lunch. Just do something!

Step 3: GET READING, GET STUDYING
Reading your bible is helpful...but you don't have to scedule it into your day. Put your bible someplace you'll see it, maybe on your night table or your desk. You could even exchange the readers digest with a bible in your bathroom. Haha!
When you see it, pick it up and read a chapter. If you don't have time for a whole chapter flip to psalms and read a chapter there. Psalms has some nice short chapters.

Step 4: PRAY
When you think of praying for something or just thanking god for something, do it. You can pray while you do anything. I've prayed while driving to school. I've prayed while cleaning, while studying for a test.
You don't have to fold your hands, close your eyes, and bow your head to pray. That little tactic was developed to keep kids in suday school from misbehaving while there was prayer. The most true prayers happen spontaniously, silently, sometimes with real bitter tears rolling down their cheeks, sometimes with hands lifted up into the air.

Step 5: LET GOD FILL YOU
Surrender is incredibly hard. Its so hard to let God lead. We hear Disney talking about following your heart. Problem is, your heart is so easily swayed. God never changes. We hear people say, do what feels good. But we wind up stepping on people and we turn selfish in the process. We hear people say, be a good person. Problem is we are inperfect. The only way to truely be led in a surely right direction is to be led by god.

the only way these steps will work, is if you want this. God gave you free will for a reason. But if you feel him tugging at your heart strings saying, "please come home" maybe its time to work back towards him. And it isn't easy...it never is....but let god help you.